I follow a few blogs here on blogger and some of them are quite popular with the readers, with hundreds and thousands of subscribers people pouring in with criticism good and bad alike. They seem like happening blogs where people frequently come and read stuff. Now I have wanted to blog for some time now, and one of the reasons why I didn't start right away was because initially when I had a blog it became a bit of a let down to have one and no one was bothered about reading it ... there was only one comment and that too from a friend. I grew tired of it and deleted it. Now here I am again and facing the same feelings but I have decided to not back down.
This blog is a part of the process of me figuring out emotions and sharing knowledge and it may sound a little like I am praising myself but in the end like what I have written I like seeing the fact that a little pieces of my thoughts are stringed together in a blog post :) I like knowing that there is a little more confidence in my emotions about how I feel about things and I don't have to wait for someone on the other end to say ; "well, here is what I think..." There is no being pretentious and acting a certain way just so that I am little more likable amongst the readers who visit my blog. It is purely me and my emotions and thoughts on the blog post. Its good practice for me since I want to hone my writing skills so yeah it works out for me Alhamdulillah.
So my blog doesn't have original stuff like stunning pictures, amazing fonts and out of this world content. But its my baby and I feel happy to be writing over here and hey the content is pretty original Alhamdulillah :D. In the end the biggest reminder that hits me when I see the lack of comments and hustle and bustle on my little blog is that Allah swt doesn't think I'm ready for that kind of attention. Maybe if I was bombarded with followers and comments that praised me and my writing I would have become proud and that fruitfulness of this process would have been lost altogether. And above all it is teaching me to be patient and continue my efforts.
So, by continuing to write even though I doubt what anyone is reading it or benefiting from it. I continue to feel humble about my efforts. Its not the best blog in the world and there are far better ones then mine but this one is mine, I own it and that is what makes it so much more important and different from all the other ones I follow Alhamdulillah :)